Dear Ian Lazar, I finally found you and want you to remember that you stole EVERYTHING from me! YOU rode into my life early in the year of 2007, riding on your beautiful white stallion, with your slick words flowing from your mouth and made me feel you appeared to be an angel sent from Heaven above. I felt that you were a gift from God himself when you gave me hope and I gave you what was left of my life savings! I am writing this letter to say “Good-Bye.” I must end my hatred for you and protect myself from your deceiving lies, your false pride and false courage and false PROMISES. I want you to know the damage you have cause in my life, the damage that has taken me years to repair still even today, and some of the damage that is non-repairable. YOU stole my reputation when you caused me to say everything was ok to my friends and family when it was not and made you look better, you even took money from them. You lied to me and made me believe that they would believe my words of hope, I didn’t know that you would hurt them. You blocked the reality and clouded my perception so I wouldn’t realize that they already knew what was going on in my life, that they already knew you had the ball and chain attached and you were leading me around like a lost puppy trying to find his way home. YOU destroyed the positive relationships that I had spent years building. You took away the only people who I ever truly knew understood me and left me with no one to talk to, and afraid to ask for help. I HOPE YOU SUFFER A LONG, TORTUROUS DEATH AND ROT IN JAIL, ALL ALONE AND BY YOURSELF SO YOU MIGHT UNDERSTAND AND FEEL THE PAIN THAT YOU CAUSED! YOU showed me a path to complete self-destruction and utter despair, so dark and terrifying that I felt I had no other way out except to kill myself. You led me to suicide, IAN! You led me to want to kill the person that I had become so that I could never again be who I once was. IAN, I WILL SIT AND WATCH YOUR KARMA JUST LIKE YOU SAT BY AND WATCHED MY LIFE BEING DESTROYED.